Preface
Man by its very nature adapts. In this adaptation we learn the
nature of the beast. Sometimes the process is arduous. Other
times it just happens. It can not be stopped. With every new
adaptation learned and passed on adjusting to the next life
changing event is easier. This is what we call experience. We
acclimate to each new event and pass it on so our successors
don't have as much work to do. Experience is what pushes
knowledge on to new heights and gives us something to live for.
It is what makes us who we are as individuals and society as a
whole.
The past is often the greatest teacher of experience we have.
It is often what builds our bridge to the future and it helped
build mine. Everything experienced in the past effects the
future. Sometimes what may happen in the future dictates how we
act in the present and effects how we look upon the past.
I know this confuses you. What could all this possibly have to
do with the end of the world? We still hadn't found a cure to
every disease nor could we travel to other galaxies. There was
no peace, even among my people. So what's the point of going
over all this history you ask? Well even Hitler had to have a
childhood, no? Yes, I did just compare myself to Hitler. Oh
yes, the Gröfaz and I have much in common; in his youth Hitler
had aspirations of being an artist, and he attempted to destroy
a race from which some debate he is descended. Coincidental?
Ah, but you still have much to learn about me. One wouldn't
think it possible even with what I'm going to tell you now. Yet
there is a bit of a megalomaniac in us all. It is a matter of
experience that brings out or suppress such tendencies.
You know it's hard sometimes. Looking back on yourself and
comparing it to what you are now. The window to the past can
also be distorted. You may see something you think is true only
to learn you've perceived it wrong. You may also see something
clearly and not recognize it in yourself. Sometimes you don't
like what you see in either reflection.
One can learn so much by looking back upon themselves. Oh sure
you could look back and say, "but look how far you've come."
Yes, I've changed, adapted, evolved, whatever you'd like to call
it. I'm just not sure it's for the better. Sometimes I wish I
had remained ignorant. Ignorance can be dangerous after all
Hitler dropped out of school. His lack of education turned out
quite detrimental to the world.
Had I not made certain mistakes over the years I would not be
where I am today. Mistakes I hope you will learn from and not
repeat. Mistakes? That seems so strange, after all what I
consider mistakes others consider success. Life is so full of
contradictions is it not?
I still didn't know anything. As a slave I learnt nothing
compared to what was to come. What I would learn about the past
and myself. About love and treachery, business and pleasure,
pain, oh yes there would still be pain and death, strangely
enough not much about birth other than it being associated with
loss. The loss of the universe could be said to be at the
expense of the birth of a new one.
But I digress. My birth or rather rebirth is where we must
pick up my tale.
By: Christine Schnell
